Blessings in Disguise

This has been a rough week.  I had several nights of poor sleep; nights that were restless as my sleep was interrupted by heart palpitations and muscle tremors.  Heart palpitations used to wake me up almost nightly, but I've had only a few in the past couple of months.  I thought I was done with them and it is so frustrating to feel like my health is regressing instead of improving.  When I can see improvements in my health it is easier to be optimistic, but when new symptoms appear or old ones reappear, I get so easily discouraged.  This week with the heart palpitations returning, the muscle tremors starting, and the lack of sleep from both of them, my mood was less than cheery.

Laying awake at 4:00am this morning, I was mentally listing all of the things that were making me miserable.  In the midst of my internal grumbling,  the chorus from a well loved song entered my head:
'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops,
What if Your healing comes through tears,
What if a thousand sleepless nights is what it takes to know You're near.
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

This song, "Blessings" by Laura Story,  is a beautiful tribute to a loving Father in Heaven.  The song testifies that God is watching out for us, especially when life is most difficult.  It reminds me that even when I feel forsaken, God is blessing me. In those early morning hours, I felt peace as the chorus to this song kept repeating in my mind.

In an interview on News Release Today with Kevin Davis, Laura Story shares her experiences when her husband was hospitalized with a brain tumor.  She talks about having trust in God and surrendering to His will.  She talks about seeing the blessings in our trials.  It is a very inspiring interview found here: http://www.newreleasetoday.com/article.php?article_id=551

I believe the message of this song.  I believe that God is always blessing our lives and that when things are hard, He is still there.  I know that above all, God is a loving father that desires to bless and help His children.  I know that He is blessing and helping me.  I would have never have chosen to experience such poor health over that past year and a half, but I would never trade all of the blessings that have come through this trial.  I know that God's ways are higher than my ways and He has a perfect plan.